I was thinking the other day, that I wish I could see into the future. I thought about it a lot actually, and then I realized that I was in the future….That’s what God teaches us through His Word.

What I mean is this… I started thinking about some of the trials and circumstances that I was facing, and wishing that I could see the end to know what was coming and it was as if I wasted a half hour worrying about it. However, God  is always working.  My time was not spent in a worthwhile endeavor  trying to come to some type of resolution or fix a problem, it was simply wasted.  While I moped and fretted over something that isn’t in my hands anyway, “God was working everything to my eventual good”(Romans 8:28).

I wasted odds amounts of time…hoping and wishing things would ….work out….like they do in my head. It’s all very magical -warm and fuzzy. But, then I am brought back to reality. Some people here on Earth tend to use others for their own selfish reasons. I’d like to think I’m a good person. I tend to be honest, nice and caring towards others who I have a lot of respect for and do hold close to my heart.  My feelings will never change those those who come and go into my life. I’ve never really burnt bridges with people. I’ve probably chosen majority of the time to not CROSS THAT BRIDGE, and I’m sure I have burnt a few. But, that was because they deserved it. Sometimes I wonder why people linger in my life.? Giving hope and false promises. Hence why I have trust issues, and don’t really have any expectation for anyone. Trust is EARNED people!!! Never given! I’m sitting here and I just want to tell the world my story about the meaning of the title but it does not matter and I’m not one to go into details on my website about that kinda stuff.

“I’m there for you, when you need be to me there. You let me in when you’re ready. Then when you have someone else to occupy your mind with – clearly you get rid of me. I’m tired of being the “in-between” girl” the person who is there for emotional support”.

I wasted time worrying over what the future might hold and yet it came and nothing happened, except that God was working.  He was in control the whole time.  God prepares us for the things to come. Not one microsecond of time elapsed that God did not control, plan and allow.  There was not one minute in which God was worried that my future might not turn out exactly the way he had intended.

The problem lies in me, in fact it lies in all of us.  We are not willing to trust in God. Maybe it is because we are unable to see Him, that makes us second guess His ability to come through.  Or perhaps it is our controlling nature, that prohibits us from allowing God to work in the way that He desperately wants to in our lives.  For most of us however, it is because we have been let down so many times and left rejected, that we are unwillingly to open up our hearts to allow anyone else a place. God’s word says “He holds us in the palm of His Hand”(Psalms 95:3-5). God’s desire for us is that we would simply trust Him, and to believe that He is able. When I realized that I had accomplished nothing through my worrying, I made the decision to keep remembering… Good Things Happen To Those That Wait. Whatever the future holds I know it will be grand but for now I do have control on where I let my emotions run and also who I let control those emotions. This can be some great – words…but they need to be put into action. I’m only human I may fall back into that same path, but at least I’m trying. This post means a lot of things. From family to friends to relationships to strangers to just living in general. It’s really hard for me to share what is going on in my life. In fact I’m sure  a lot of people don’t know the issues I have keep inside the walls of my soul. So with that being said. Live – Laugh and Love Life.