The only thing that is keeping me alive right now is the fact that THIS is not “it”. There must be more that I’m supposed to experience and more He has for me. Jesus promised that tomorrow would worry about itself. So I cast my cares, oh and my many fears, into His Almighty hands.

“…I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.”

-Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken

A sigh of relief perhaps. To have traveled, not like all the rest, but to be scared and look past all the fear, and strive into the unknown path that only God himself has written for us.

Ps. 23 says “Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, for You are with me. Your rod and Your staff comfort me.”Even in all the pain of life in the valley, God is with me. As shepherd in the storm, God does not leave His sheep. And He will not leave me. Nor you. And years and years will pass, and looking back we’ll sigh. A sigh of relief. We did not travel the path that the world has taken. We have traveled the path of the few, and that, THAT has made the difference. The travel has made the difference in our character. our faith. our hope. our successes.

As someone wise once said, this too will pass. Be encouraged. The shepherd has not forgotten about His sheep. Even in the valley.

Hey.

Weighing in at a ton of pure ruthless rules and regulations, The Educational Institution. And in this corner, little C. Final battle. Last round. Let’s get ready to ruuuuuuuuumble!
No. Please. Let’s not. Don’t rumble. No rumbling. I’ve endured enough hooks and jabs. I just want to take it easy for once. But I’m barely hanging in there. It’s only the 15 assignments that are driving me insane (no i did not leave them off till the last minute…please gie me more credit..And it’s gotten to the point where I’m diagnosing myself with disorders.

Why does it feel like someone is pinching the right side of my brain? It’s not a headache. It’s not a migraine. Am I getting a brain tumor? Oh, God. I should cut down those 1+ hour cell phone calls with _____ some nights. Googles “Symptoms of a brain tumor.”
Why am I hearing funny? What’s wrong with my ears? Am I going deaf? Lowers volume on iPod.
How come my calves are sore? I’m on my ___ at school all day. Muscular deterioration?
Why is my heart beating so fast? High blood pressure? Digs for sugar.
My eye is red today – clearly its not pink eye because i’ve locked myself in my room since Friday – i guess starring at a computer screen doing assignments. Googles tells me that Red eyes are caused by enlarged, dilated blood vessels, leading to the appearance of redness on the surface of the eye. clearly my eye is irritated just like me right now ha.
My back hurts. Let me sit up straight. Googles “How to strengthen back “

Stress stresses me out. Someone make it stop! I’m over thinking and making excuses for things that don’t really exist lmao what a riot. okay that was funny at least for me. don’t worry about me i’m just being a drama queen I’m quite healthy for the average 24 year old. I just can’t wait till Friday.

Overall I had a great day at placement. Kids are sweet ” you look so pretty today miss m” “i always like it when you come an teach us” lol i love kids. so yeah i start my 5 week teaching block next week. i wont be online much during the day which i like because i couldn’t careless. I only stay online because i’m in class and my handy-dandy laptop keeps me company as i sit among my friends and listen to professors.I have the most awesome placement teacher ever. Since day one when I met her. She’s so cool- we’re so alike its so funny.

this is my week
whats due this week!!!!

Monday – placement teach 4 lessons i don’t have to but i want to DONE

Tuesday
- math portfolio from beginning of the year to present its like a 4″ binder DONE
- science ch.1-3 notes DONE
- science grade 4 unit -habitats a total of 15 lessons \(grouP)DONE

Wednesday
- Diversity and equity journals (6 pages) work in progress of being done
- Diversity and equity part B of KIT (3 pages) DONE
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Thursday
-shared reading (10 pages)work in progress of being done
-language – case study for ELL/ELD leader (4 pages) work in progress of being done
- language – literature book list of 30+ books (30 pages/1 book per page) work in progress of being done

all due this week…
you see my frustration?

ah well.
i don’t know if this post makes sense. eh! bare with me
Luv,